Sunday, October 30, 2011

Missing you.......

You never realize how much time you spend with someone until they leave for an entire weekend forcing you to stay in your room and work on homework 24/7. Yes this is how my weekend has been, lonely and boring. Despite the fact that I have been alone for the entire weekend I have had a lot of time to think about life and the future. The closer I get to graduating the scarier it becomes to leave Johnson behind. Living in Tennessee on the Johnson Bible College campus has been my life for the past 3 years, it's my home, my family and I am just not ready to leave that all behind. The one person I will miss seeing everyday is my wonderful boyfriend. Being able to see him throughout the day and being able to talk about all the crazy things going on in my life is what helps me get through a day. Whenever I think about leaving him behind, I wonder how I might possibly survive. Yes, I know this may sound silly or absurd but have you ever had to move 359 miles away from your best friend not knowing when you would have the opportunity to see them again. I mean the summer is hard enough let alone a whole school year. Have you ever been so in love that whenever you are away from that person you feel like a piece of you is missing? Have you ever had restless sleepless nights because the person you really cared about was several miles away? When things are not going right or I am having an absolutely horrible day, a hug from him just seems to make everything seem perfect. Seeing his wonderful smile everyday just brings joy to my life. Getting to spend time in the studio with him several weekends in a row, you may think it sounds boring but to me it is the best thing in the world. It's the best thing in the world because I get to see him doing something he truly enjoys and is passionate about. I'm really not ready to leave him behind......for now I am looking to God for guidance, because I know I can always count on him to send me in the right direction. In the meantime I am going to enjoy and cherish every minute I have with my boyfriend for who know where I will be once I graduate.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

And so it begins....

Well I did it, I survived my first full week of classes. It's really great to be back in Tennessee with all my Johnson family once again. I have actually managed to stay on top of my work believe it or not. It's an accomplishment for me considering how much I love people! I only have one and half years left so I figured I need to make the most of it and enjoy it while I can...who knows maybe I will move to Tennessee once I graduate. I guess it will all depend on the funds.

I am definitely missing my Samaria Christian Church Family but it was fantastic being back at Farragut!

Well I am at a loss for words...which is unlike sadly that's all for today. I suppose nothing interesting is going on in my life that I want to write about.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

as summer draws to a close

As I sit here thinking about summer coming to an end, I wonder where the time went! I complained many times about being bored or having nothing to do and yet it seems like time has passed so quickly. It would be a lie if I said that I wasn't ready for summer to end because a part of me is. I'm ready to be back in Tennessee surrounded by the beautiful mountains and my wonderful Johnson family. I'm and beginning to start my senior year at Johnson University and I have started to realize that this is it! I only have one and a half semester left of college and then I am done! The day I have looked forward to all through high school and now that it is almost here, it scares me. It just seems like yesterday that I was graduating from high school, how can it be possible for me to be out there on my own. I mean it's a big world out there and it is a scary place. Right now I live in the comfort of the Johnson bubble, sheltered from the big world, and I'm not ready to leave. I suppose I am just going to have to face reality and realize that yes it will be time for me to "grow up".

Deciding to attend Johnson Bible College was one of the best decisions I have made in my life. At first I did not want to travel very far from home, so attending a college that was 7 hours away from mom and dad was not an option in my book. Dad kept telling me how great Johnson was and how I should think about attending. Well the summer before my junior year of high school mom and dad took me on some college visits. The first one i visited was KCU, when we first set foot on campus, I just new it wasn't the place for me it just didnt feel right. Well on that same day we also happened to visit Johnson. Before our car even made it on campus I fell in love! I was in awe of how beautiful the campus was, I just couldn't believe it! It just felt like home! So I decided to apply to Johnson and if I didn't get in then that was not where I was supposed to be. I am so glad that I chose to attend Johnson I have made many lasting friendships that I would not trade for anything. I have certainly grown in my faith while attending Johnson and it sure has helped me become a stronger person. Johnson will always be a big part of my life. I went to college with the idea that I was there for school and school only none of this having a boyfriend, like all the other girls. Well I proved myself wrong because when I least expected it I found this most amazing guy whom I developed a friendship with and it certainly turned into something more. He has been a huge blessing in my life. He has helped me see myself for who I truly am, and encourages in everything that I do. Whether he realizes it or not he certainly has been a big part of helping me to look to God and become stronger in my faith. God is definitely a big part of our relationship and I honestly don't know how we would survive if he wasn't. And God is definitely a big part of why we are still together after a 1 year and 4 amazing months! It has been a windy road full of obstacles that we have had to overcome and with God at the center of our relationship we can overcome anything. Love Never Fails.  My boyfriend has truly been a blessing in my life and I am excited to see what the future has in store for us. Even though we are 200 Miles away from each other I know he loves me and thinks about me everyday, I couldn't ask for anything more. I am truly Blessed.