Sunday, October 30, 2011

Missing you.......

You never realize how much time you spend with someone until they leave for an entire weekend forcing you to stay in your room and work on homework 24/7. Yes this is how my weekend has been, lonely and boring. Despite the fact that I have been alone for the entire weekend I have had a lot of time to think about life and the future. The closer I get to graduating the scarier it becomes to leave Johnson behind. Living in Tennessee on the Johnson Bible College campus has been my life for the past 3 years, it's my home, my family and I am just not ready to leave that all behind. The one person I will miss seeing everyday is my wonderful boyfriend. Being able to see him throughout the day and being able to talk about all the crazy things going on in my life is what helps me get through a day. Whenever I think about leaving him behind, I wonder how I might possibly survive. Yes, I know this may sound silly or absurd but have you ever had to move 359 miles away from your best friend not knowing when you would have the opportunity to see them again. I mean the summer is hard enough let alone a whole school year. Have you ever been so in love that whenever you are away from that person you feel like a piece of you is missing? Have you ever had restless sleepless nights because the person you really cared about was several miles away? When things are not going right or I am having an absolutely horrible day, a hug from him just seems to make everything seem perfect. Seeing his wonderful smile everyday just brings joy to my life. Getting to spend time in the studio with him several weekends in a row, you may think it sounds boring but to me it is the best thing in the world. It's the best thing in the world because I get to see him doing something he truly enjoys and is passionate about. I'm really not ready to leave him behind......for now I am looking to God for guidance, because I know I can always count on him to send me in the right direction. In the meantime I am going to enjoy and cherish every minute I have with my boyfriend for who know where I will be once I graduate.